Mother of all observations!

You cant love anyone, if you don't love yourself. You just cant. You will be so preoccupied with your own flaws that you will not have the time to see the other person. Every unrelated thing, you will relate to you. Everyday you will add a brand new chain.

There is a funny thing about life, its like water, it always finds its level and that level is what you think about yourself. Sooner or later, it will match what you think you deserve. Your eyes becomes everyone else's. Life levels with you, if you think you are not special, so wouldn't everyone.  All that matters is what you think about yourself. All you need to do is look at yourself a little longer, till you see the time and effort put into making you.  The twists and turns, the ups and downs, the bumps, the constant clashes, everything that needed to fall into place to lead up to you. For each unique person, there is a unique story that begins and ends with you. You star in it.

As I get older, I like that fact that I am beginning to look past the fear. The fear hasn't gone, but I can see beyond. I can handle myself better, learn to let go, break my boundaries once in awhile. Walk in a zig-zag but not a straight line. And the best bit is all of me is able to match my expectations, which are beginning to grow..... slowly.

Heres to growing up ... slowly :)

If I could hold this moment ....

.... still, I would.
Interrupt time, no more seconds, no more time.
If I could hold this moment in my arms and never let go.
Tell tomorrow goodbye and let go of my past.
Notice each breath, each flicker of life.
If  I could hold this moment in my eyes.
Never blink, never turn away.
Let the breeze pass by, let the stars come and go.
If I could hold this moment in my hands.
and never let go... I would.

Relationships

They start messy and they end messy. But when we are not in them, life is much clearer, more balanced. But we cant wait to fall into a mess. Cant wait to lose yourself, to lose your freedom, peace of mind, simplicity, we cant seem to wait to lose. Doesn't matter how old you get, hard-earned wisdom is thrown out of the window and uncertainty opens the door. We love mysteries, we fall for what makes no sense, what is unstable, unadvisable. We just cant seem to wait.