guitar God - Newton Faulkner

This is what talent looks like - ginger dreads, pale white skin and magic fingers

and another awesome song - teardrop

Introducing Newton Faulkner - Been thinking about it

If I was lost. Lost at sea. I'd grab the flag and I'd swim all the way home. Cause it's it in my genes

I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it.

If I like you, And you like me, Why the hell are we wasting our time ? Are you too afraid to cross that line ?

I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it.

If this was to end right now. I'd go with a grateful smile

I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it.

If life's so short. Then what's the cost. Of working day and night five days a week ? You say you hate it but it makes ends meet

I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it.

My time here on earth could be. A fragile and fleeting thing. But if this was to end right now. I'd go with a grateful smile

I've been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it. Been thinking 'bout it. I've been thinking 'bout it.

If I like you. And you like me. Why the hell are we wasting our time ?

Skin deep

We let beautiful people get away with murder, we buy over price cool looking gadgets, cloths, food etc. Businesses have long tapped into this very human tendency to go for packaging. Gyms sell the idea of personal reinvention, people let perfectly packaged humans walk all over them. Somehow the same standards don't apply, be it people or things. My Imac is not compatible with my external hard drive, it doesn't have a bloody backspace key, but who cares, I dont. I look it its aluminum body, beautiful screen quality and awesome sound and forget all about it, even as I write. I adjust, learn to work around that missing key, missing compatibility.

But I want to ask why god made us so shallow, why is pretty so important, why were we not created to look deeper than the skin. Darwin would say its an evolutionary advantage, you have greater chances of having offspring. I agree, but then why do we apply that logic to appliances. It has to be something deeper than that, or is it that simple. But then why is pretty not enough! why this mix, why not shallow through and through. Why do we realize with much delay it is not enough. If it was that then my Imac didn't need to have awesome sound and screen quality. just being an aluminum box is enough. I sometimes look at myself and see how I treat people differently, how my own standards change irrespective of gender. But as a saving grace I am much more nicer to my friends and I give them infinite chances. Somehow, friendship sails right through the skin and lands at the heart. If my friend doesn't wish me well, I will not put up with her nonsense simple. Somehow the way we behave with our friends, is the most rational we ever are, when you compare it with our behavior with strangers, people we like, our parents, etc. We are much closer to our ideal self when we are with our friends, no temper tantrums, a sea of understanding, nothing is too extreme. Maybe friendship is the most stable of human relationships, it gets ruined when other emotions - jealousy, love, ego etc enter. But despite that, it remains the most stable form. The skin of you friend doesn't matter, if  she or he has your back. Maybe we should turn all our relationships (parents, lovers, professional, religious) into friendships. Maybe then we would be nicer to other people, most importantly nicer to ourselves. 

Things I am grateful for

I always list things which I am scared of, its almost automatic and i am very good at it. The list goes something like -

i am not good at my job.

I am not comfortable of speaking in front of people.

Due to above two I might lose my job.

I have to face the very real reality of living alone forever.

Losing someone  in my family.

I will get fatter. This was initially get fat but with time the starting point changed!

Post which I successfully feel scared and lousy. So i though i would list a couple of things I am grateful for, not good at, but grateful for -

My family, they are still here, even though they are not in the best of health.

my health, i do put on weight extremely easily but I am grateful for a healthy body, that becomes better when I really need it. I mean my asthma disappeared when i joined my master's course, I would have never made it otherwise.

My job, it sucks but i am payed well. I have lady boss so I cant be harassed to the full extent of the term.

Friends, even though they all go away, US seems to be a popular destination. But I still have a bunch of people other than my family who wish me well. Also when one goes another comes to my rescue.

Mumbai, if you have to be a girl and want to be relatively free and in India, Mumbai is a blessing.

Money has never been plenty but it has never been scarce.

A house in the middle of nowhere, but it is always a bailout option to run to in my weakest moments.

I have always had good people to work with.

My sister, who never fought with me and who probably never wants to live with me thanks to my temper, but still loves me.