My mind....

... is currently on a fact finding mission, it is trying to deduce something. More accurately it likes a certain conclusion and it is trying its level best to fit that with the evidence, collected over the last  six months or so. Before that my mind was unaware of the mission at hand, hence the evidence older than six months is not of very good quality, plus it doesn't fit the conclusion my mind likes to fit.The negative side effects of having a mind so preoccupied with this secret mission is - memory loss, intelligence loss, loss of any kind of activity which would help me get my career started. My career is something I don't think will ever start and i am no good looking chick, so the other alternative also is never going to take off. So my mind happily goes back to its fact finding mission, regaling me with flashbacks which support favorable outcome and facts that squish it. Then besides my mind is my intuition, or maybe its the saner bit which is trying to be heard. It keeps showing me the hopelessness of the whole fact finding mission, keeps telling me to go with the most realistic outcome and be OK with it, because in the long-run its best for me. But my mind has run soo many scenario analysis by me, so many pieces of evidence, so many outcomes have been run by me, that both me and my mind are finally exhausted and barely functional. So down goes my wit, down goes foresight, down goes common sense, down goes sloth!